In the final stretch....

Well, I guess you could say we have finally hit the last stretch. I have just over one more month to go before Mr. Andrew makes his appearance. I'm so very ready for that day. It is unbearably hot here. It hasn't budged from the 110's this whole entire week. To say I'm miserable is putting it extremely mildly. I'm always exhausted, I can't get back to sleep if I wake up after about 5 or 6 am, the heat drains me even more, and I'm still on swings so I usually work until at least 8 or 9 at night. And yes I will be working right up until the day I have the baby. I'm seriously considering taking leave the week prior to my due date just so I don't have to waddle my way into work at the hottest time of day. Especially since it will probably be hitting the 120's by that time. I have started running out of ideas for things to do with Alexus. She wants to go play outside in the kiddie pool so very badly and I feel really bad that I just can't handle going out with her.  I think we might start doing an indoor pool type thing and just give her a cool bath instead..

On another note... I'm kinda excited about this weekend. I only work 3 days this week. 4 day weekend for July 4th. One of my best friends is getting married on the 4th and I wish I could be there. But it's taking place in Virginia so I'll definitely just have to miss out.

The other girls at my job are also getting close to their due dates. One is a week or two behind me and another is another week or two behind her. Another is due in December and yet another I'm unsure of her due date. My friend back home is due shortly after me as well. Another friend who lives here is due closer to the end of the year as well. Maybe October or November. Both times I have been pregnant, a lot of people I'm close to have been pregnant as well. Oh and there is another girl I went to basic with who was induced today. I just can't keep track of how many people there are having babies right now :P

Well... I'm exhausted and my brain is everywhere right now while I'm sitting here at work. About to fall asleep at the computer. So... I'm going to go try to find something productive to do...like update the registry or something.
Hope y'all are having a great day! And Happy Independence Day a little early :D

Homecoming :D

By this time next week I will be happily arrived in Charlottesville Virginia. I haven’t even started packing. I have so many more things to remember to do this week. I have tags I need to make for dad… I have to remember to pack my personal documents for name change, as well as the little F22 photo posters to take as gifts back home.  I have to remember that the car seat has to go with me @.@ not to mention all the basics….clothing, bath stuff, Alexus’s  toys, clothes, diapers, bath stuff. The older she gets the more there is to take with me when I go home… and at the same time there is less. I don’t have to bring formula and baby food. She eats what I eat and drinks what I drink…minus any soda I happen to drink (not likely since it hurts my stomach now).  I am definitely glad to make one more trip before I have to pay for her ticket too though.. Soon enough our travel number will be jumping to 4… With one flying free for 2 years. But that was only 3 flights with Alexus. I can’t imagine how people fly with 5 kids. That just blows my mind. I have tried really hard to not dwell on the pending trip home just because I knew I would be really excited and counting down days just makes it worse for me.  But now I am down to the last week. Tuesday night I will be all packed up, riding to the airport, and saying “see ya in a week n a half”  to my boyfriend.  He is honestly the only thing I will really miss about Vegas. No offense to my Vegas friends but I can really manage to not miss you all that much when I am surrounded by my family and friends that I never get to see.  I have started putting plans together for dinners with different people and parts of family. Hopefully everything will go smoothly with no hiccups but I’m sure something is bound to happen. As long as I don’t miss my flight like I did last time lol. Flying standby with a one year old is NOT fun. But I confirmed and re-confirmed flight details with the airline so it should be right this time. I look forward to seeing those of you I have plans with already and hope to make and follow up on plans with the rest of you. If I won’t be able to see you (if you aren’t in the area or I run out of time) I’m sorry and I will be thinking of you. Looking forward to this trip SO much!!

Hugs and Love from Las Vegas!

VA trip

Dates have been confirmed and I am super excited. Thanks to my sister and her husband for helping make this possible. I am really excited to see all my family again but i'm sad that not everyone will be there. i know i may not make it to see everyone but i'll be in va so let me know and come see me!! hah... as if i was on facebook and all the family would see this :P  anyways. i sent messages out to the people i call family and hope to see. im so freaking happy!!! *jumps up and down (in my head cuz pregnant people cant really do that)*
ok.. its short but exciting :D

Ooo

I think I just found a flight home. I was so stressed about not being able to go home at the end of May and it looks like God was looking out for me again. I have been having a really rough week and I think this is something I really needed to pull me through the month of April. I'll have a maxxed out card again but it'll be ok. It'll pay down and that's two weeks of child care I don't have to worry about paying for and also by the time I return I'll have at least a case worker for child support. I'm hoping that things will start looking up and that more positive things will be shown to me to relieve my ridiculous stress level. Thanks to my sister for helping me feel less discouraged about looking further into flights... :)

I think I need to post...

A days of thanks. Writing it down for myself isn't really helping much. And though it may be selfish I need to make myself feel better and this usually does.
1. I'm thankful for all the basics. Great house, great job, food, a reliable car, family, friends, love, insurance, and a more than comfortable living status.
2. This is where I may come off as spiteful so if you don't want to see it, don't read it. I'm thankful I got a divorce and have custody of my daughter. I'm thankful that I can provide for her on my own if I have to even though its tight sometimes but less so now that my boyfriend is helping even though he doesn't have to. I didn't want to let him at first, but if you pray for help and God gives it to you, you should take it in what form its given.
3. I'm thankful I no longer have to deal with lies and deceit being right in my face 24/7. I'm thankful that my significant other does not cheat on me or hide things from me and likewise from me to him. I'm thankful that he and I were truly friends first. Best friends at that.
4. I am thankful that most of our family has been accepting in the news of our pregnancy. Not only accepting but supportive and not judgemental.
5. I'm thankful that AJ and I make our own money but we put it all together and truly contribute to each others well being.
6. I am thankful that I was able to maintain a good relationship with my ex-husband's family...even if the same stance doesn't apply to him.
7. I am thankful that, for the most part, drama has disappeared out of my life and that I'm far less concerned about other people's opinions than I was this time a year ago.
8. I am thankful for my nearest and dearest friends who have done nothing but love me over the past several years. I'm thankful they don't hesitate to tell me the truth. And to be the shoulder I can cry on and the ear to scream into when I'm having a bad day.
9. I am thankful, even with all the evil things going on right now, that I live in the great United States of America.
10. I'm thankful that my family is still in tact, alive and living well.

Ugh

It's really too bad that once you let someone in your life that it's not so simple to get them out. I got told this weekend that if this person didn't have to see me they wouldn't but they have to so what can you do... I wish I didn't have to see them either. and I could give a really simple solution to just make us all happy but we all know it will never happen. I'm sorry I'm speaking in code and not being very clear. some people know exactly what I am talking about and the rest don't really need to know. I'm just venting. I hate that it isn't so simple as just hitting the "backspace" key on the keyboard or erasing a text. if it was that easy to remove someone from your life... it'd be way too easy lol. I've got to find a way to keep him from getting under my skin because it will just make things worse. I'm happy with who I'm with now. Which is why it bugs me so much that he can still make me so angry so quickly.


pray for me to cool my jets and just enjoy life!!

Picture updates

I don't know what order this will post up in but I figured it'd been a while so here they are!